• 12:48 @annettle it's the coolest creepy thing ever. Or maybe the creepiest cool thing. #

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• 19:21 I managed a little light gardening, hopefully without further bollocksing my bung arm. Convolvulous still winning by a mile though. #
• 22:12 @Artandmylife I think it's polite but not completely compulsory (eg maybe you know someone plans to buy it for you for xmas) #
• 12:20 @Ghetsuhm damn! My day could have been so much more interesting (and my kid so much more confused). #

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Both the boys have been talking about their Aunt a lot lately. "She made a bad choice" says Ferdi (who says little kids don't get the big stuff?) It's obvious they feel the loss keenly still (as do we all). I can manage, now, to put the grief and questions aside enough that life goes on more-or-less as normal. I'm even managing to be happy sometimes but it's an effort and the slightest thing - a sick pet or even just a thoughtless word, pushes me to where I can touch my breaking point.

Ferdinand seems to be trying to cope by attempting to control absolutely everything else in his world. This presents some challenges. When I remember where he's coming from and give him chances to feel in control things really do go smoother but when I'm tired and he's ratty it's so hard not to fall into micro-managing him.

• 00:35 Ballet was awesome. Watching little boys totally entranced was delightful. Ferdi asked "can we see this ballet again" during the last scene. #
• 17:52 @harvestbird I'm adding that to my metal list of "things I want on a t-shirt" #
• 17:53 @Ghetsuhm and looking shockingly grown-up #
• 19:14 I'm really liking stuff that smells of roses or lavender. Does this make me an old lady? #

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• 14:53 @Ghetsuhm buy it for yourself then graciously let them borrow it. #
• 18:45 About to take the boys to Peter Pan ballet. c says "Mum you look so pretty you might be dancing on the stage yourself" I'll keep him :-) #

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• 22:17 Just been to school film-festival. Lots of clever kids worked really hard and made some awesome movies. #
• 00:27 I should stop eating turkish delight, give the cat her medicines and go to bed. #
• 10:06 Ferdi has a nasty cough and Crispin has a teacher-only-day off school. I wonder if anyone's getting out of their PJs today? #
• 12:49 @Ghetsuhm :-( this years HB placements is the first time Crispin's name has been spelt correctly on any official school stuff #

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• 19:34 Ferdi says "me and Crispin need to get married and then we can dance together" Crispin says "but we don't have engagement rings!" #
• 20:50 @harvestbird sounds like the sort of drama my mother had when she decided to walk to the lab (1/2 hour away) after 12 hours of fasting #
• 16:03 @annettle poor Pippin - hope it all turns out OK. We're anxiously waiting to hear from the vet about why Boadecia has blood in her urine. #
• 16:40 I'd really like to have a week (or even a day) where I'm not having to worry about anything. I'm sick of being weighed down by this anxiety. #
• 17:43 Yay - cat most likely has mild UTI and merely needs antibiotics. Took most of day to pee for vet of course. #

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• 20:03 Mysterious trail of blood in bedroom. Cats all appear unperforated therefore expecting to discover ooky prey object at inopportune moment. #
• 21:48 Off to bed feeling not-quite-rightish and hoping I'm just over tired #
• 15:43 @annettle patience and sugary drinks? #
• 15:47 @Ghetsuhm best just to shut up - the universe is listening and its mean. #
• 16:15 @Ghetsuhm That's pretty awesome really #

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• 20:06 @jsrnz I hope you have a hand to hold and tissues at the ready #
• 20:08 Working really hard to get through the wine my parents left behind before I really get stuck in to my birthday bottle of Bombay Sapphire. #
• 14:18 I just realised I've had my t-shirt on backwards all day. I only think my cardie hid it well enough. #

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• 13:49 I'm obviously not quite well yet - I just decided I really didn't fancy a coffee. #
• 14:03 @Ghetsuhm That's a special sort of tired alright. #

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• 19:42 My new motto "if we drink enough wine we won't notice" #

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• 19:11 Turning 8 has successfully been achieved with party, cake and presents. Drinking wine, waiting for takeaways, feeling sorry for snuffly me #

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• 16:02 C is going to be upset. His two best friends have the ill in their family and can't come to his party tomorrow. #

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• 15:15 I really should clean the bathroom and figure out what we're eating before my parents arrive. And also make gingerbread wizard's hats. #

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• 21:36 @jsrnz dude, don't read the troll! #
• 15:18 @Ghetsuhm wouldthe bit in "advice for young people" where you're extolling the virtues of internet porn be too obvious? #
• 16:04 @Ghetsuhm what is the world coming to? *shakes head solemnly* #

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• 18:44 @harvestbird puppy + flower = near unbearable cuteness #

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• 20:26 My head hurts and I can't remember if I already took a pain-killer or not. That's what I get for sitting in the sun all day - melted brains. #
• 23:56 @annettle your belly is cute and not huge. I gained sod-all during my pregnancies so 2kg is perfectly plausible. #
• 16:17 Yay - now my small minion has been out and bought milk I can have a cup of coffee. Three cheers for caffeinated beverages! #
• 18:31 @KaiLoi that can't be right #

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• 20:21 @Ghetsuhm it's pretty fabulous. #
• 21:25 Did you really have to start letting off fireworks at the exact second I was tucking the kids into bed? #
• 23:54 @janstice's new iphone keeps surprising him with noises. He's so cute when he's startled. #
• 16:05 @Artandmylife shagging #

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• 11:07 @ghetsuhm's book arrived in my mailbox just now. Housework is therefore unlikely to occur today. #

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• 19:52 @annettle dooooooo it! #
• 23:03 @jsrnz it was lovely seeing you here the other night - sorry we didn't manage to catch up again today. #

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