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Today marks a year of the children's school being located in Halswell. There was supposed to be a celebration with our school, the associated high school and the school that we are all sharing space with. Organisational failure meant nothing much happened. That's ok - its not really something I wish to celebrate. I know it's a good thing that the kids have a space to learn in, that our school still exists at all but I miss our central city location so much. I hate being stuck out where there is nothing within walking distance. We used to walk to the library, the museum, the park and the pool. The kids used to think it was the funniest thing in the world to cut through the men's underwear in Ballantynes on the way back to school after a morning on the river bank. We still get out and about but it's so much harder. All sorts of things that happened organically due to our central location and open plan building now only happen due to conscious effort. It's exhausting. I miss how easy it was for me to be in and out of school too. I miss being able to go bra shopping on my own or meet a friend for coffee. It's been a year and there's still no plan for moving back to the city. No date, no site, no news. I don't want to be used to the suburbs.

I've been feeling particularly fragile lately. There are Reasons but I hate when I'm this wallowy and self-absorbed. This is the closest to Not OK I've been for a very long while. I know that if I plough on through I'll get my perspective back but I'm really not at my lovely best right now.

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Mar. 13th, 2012 05:30 pm (UTC)
Ah, darling.

Many, many hugs.

Mar. 14th, 2012 06:59 am (UTC)
I think we are all going to continue to go through the ups and the downs as the long tail of this disaster keeps working itself out. I keep finding myself thinking everything is okay and then something, like the school's future location or someone close tells me what they are left dealing with daily because of events of that day and hits me all again how very far from the end of this we are. Big Hugs and it is not wallowy and self absorbed but grieving and dealing with that and we all need time to do that this year.
Fiona S
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